Timing.....

As with everything in life, things dont always work out the way you want.  Most of the time, its because of the time you chose to do something, the time you didnt choose but it just happened that you felt something.  Why these feelings are so strong are a mystery sometimes, you want them to go away but they dont.   They linger in your mind day in and day out.  Is it something new, something fresh?  We really cannot understand what goes on in our minds and in our hearts, us as human beings are a very complicated being.

So why, why do i feel the way i feel, want what i want?  Why does it feel so strong?  I cant explain it, and i wish i could so i could just flush it out of my system.  I keep trying and trying but it just keeps coming back.  Like the falling snow,  it may cover up something you want to avoid but eventually it melts away and reveals what you put there and you remember... and want...

The moment, timing, is everything.....

Constant State of Change

No matter how minute it may be, there is something different about every passing day.  Many people go through life thinking, everyday im doing the same routine, breakfast, go to work, do the same thing and work, head home, eat dinner and go to bed.  This is somewhat true, but its not always the same.  U may bump into an old friend on the bus, go out for lunch, witness and accident and dole out some random acts of kindness.

Life doesnt have to be a routine if you dont let it be.  When you start noticing the changes in your everyday life, you are experiencing life and all that it has to offer.  Experiences in life cannot always be good but those bad changes are what shape who we are and what we do the next day, and if not the next day you will reflect on what happened and learn and share with those around you.

Like last night, a very long blackout at a friends house.  There was a group of us just chatting about life and the lights went out.  Suddenly there was no lights, no tv, no music.  There was just candle light and good company.  It was fun, we all had a chance to talk about things going on in our lives without the distraction of technology  (there was an odd celphone going off).  We learned more things about eachother, we had time to sit and ponder about things.  We enjoyed watching the snow fall..... then i had to get a phone card later on.  That was not fun, driving in the snow with some traffic lights out and then returning to a dark and empty home with no one to talk to.  

So good or bad, that was an experience, something to share.

Your life is never monotone if you take the time to look at it from a different perspective.

Its in a constant state of change....

Life - Live it and love it!

Life is all about new beginnings, you can reconnect with your past but it does not mean that you have to live your past.  Im sure we all have regrets in life, but with regrets come reflection and with that reflection you learn, and hopefully for the best.  I can only preach living everyday to its fullest and not dwelling on the past, practicing it is another story as much as you want to, things that you dont expect can come at you life a giant tidal wave.

Living within the limits that society has put on you seems to be the norm, how do we get out of these limits without others looking down on you?  We want to do what we want without anyone caring, but does that really happen?  Everything we do can and will impact another no matter how large or small. 

Life is what you make of it, make it count, no matter what, we were put on this earth for a reason.  Whether is be for someone or for yourself, you be the judge.  Only you can be the judge of yourself, no one can really ever know the real you.  In this life, we live for ourselves and the people we are surrounded by.

Live and let live, Love and embrace love.  Everyday is a chance for us to learn something new.....

OK, the above may not have made any sense whatsoever but i just felt like writing it....

Central Park (not NYC)

Spent a morning at the park with my 2 little nephews, this is the first time that i'd ever been to this park. My sister in law warned me of the squirrels. I thought, how bad could they be? Sure enough, these squirrels were afraid of no one. They are on the hunt for a quick meal, ive never seen a park full of chubby squirrels, the ones i usually see are very skinny.

We stopped for a snack and immediatly the squirrels swarmed us like a gang on criminals. On two feet sniffing the air for these popcorn cakes we had. My nephew (lets call him Milo) thought they were cute, saying "look! swirrel!, other swirrel! (another squirrel) then it took a turn for the worst. The squirrels got closer and closer, of course me and my camera i start filming them oblvios to Milos cries of distress. Milo wanted to get off the ground, a squirrel started to sniff my foot, i finally noticed and yelled "oh shit" then Milo immediatly follows my lead and yells "oh shit" . Damn taught my 2 year old nephew to swear! Eventually Milo sat in the baby cart and felt safe, when a squirrel would come by he would start yelling "swirrel! go away!!!".

Lesson learned : Dont swear around kids, they absorb everything like a sponge!

Why am i floating?

I guess this is an intro to the world of the Floating Mango. Why Mango? Its a really short and simple story. Many many moons ago i was creating my first email address, i needed a name and i didnt want to use my real name. My brother just suggessted it and its stuck with me ever since.

Why am i floating? The same as many people in this world, im still floating, trying to get a sense of my purpose in this life. I feel that my purpose is to help people, in what way im not sure. Ive been here and there and have helped people. There are so many different ways to help people, i think i need to make a bigger impact but as of this moment im not sure how it will be done.

So in the meantime, i can help myself, my family and my friends and from time to time completely random strangers.

Family, friends and the ones you love, we must treasure them and try to stick close to them as much as we can. Without them, you lose yourself in a sea of nothingness, they keep you grounded and give you a sense of reality....